all that you think is good, may not be good at all.

There are certain periods in our lives wherein we are bound to imperfections, mistakes or mishaps, but these things are not the reason, nor the means, to measure the true capability of a person... The moment we stand up and face these problems, is the only means that would somehow define us for what we truly are.

We may not be the best when it comes to these kinds of games, but we surely have the fighting chance to not only save the things that can be saved, but yourself in the process.

I have learned to love myself more than ever; which is why I will not allow myself to be persecuted by these kinds of emotions. I don't need your luggage, I just need my stuff.

I know that these may be all to sudden for some, but for me, knowing that growth has not taken it's toll, and that further harm might be done, it would be best to cut out the lines/threads that connect me to you. It maybe my loss, as you would probably think, but come to think of it, it's both our losses.

It will not be easy, I know. But I do have my support group, my friends, my family and GOD to guide me. This is just part of the 'molding' process by which GOD has entrusted to all of us, and therefore I am but willing to be molded to any shape possible.

I love him, rather, I loveD him.
I am not bitter, I'm just expressing myself. After all, self-expression is/was/and will NEVER be a crime. :)

The Pilates Kid. :))

THIS IS ONE HILARIOUS VIDEO.
hahahahaha... I never thought that Pilates would be (at any rate) a form of self defense.. LOL! nice one! :))

hello JULY, hello dengue. urgh!

I actually just got home yesterday from the hospital.

Been confined for 5 freakin' days!

And the torture does not begin and end with the IV line being inserted, removed and reinserted... The thing is, I got sick with Dengue -- a stupid disease brought about by the sudden decrease in the platelet count, accompanied by dehydration and in worse case scenarios, accompanied by bleeding and hemorrhage. Yes, it's one hell of a serious disease -- But the thing is, dengue has NO CURE, so technically, the approach of most doctors would be to constantly rehydrate their patients. Minus the tradition, being hooked with 13 IV fluids is NO JOKE, plus you have to drink LOADS (and that would mean liters to gallons) of H20. And to add MOOREEE injury to the incident, I had to drink that homemade concoction, "tawa-tawa" because it is believed to help raise my ever depleting platelet count.

ugh! imagine the pain.
you do realize that drinking "tawa-tawa" does not do anything good to your body, except make you squint your eye, hold breath and wish you wouldn't vomit because of the after taste.

Being stuck in the hospital for 5 days made me realize that I do have some love for my profession. Considering that I am a Registered Nurse, I know the do's and don't s of the disease... apart from that I know how to manage stuff ( such as the time I had an epistaxis ). This and many more are the reasons why I somehow managed to go on for 5 days without getting crazied. :)

Now that I'm out of the hospital, I missed out on a lot of stuff with my hospital duty. It may be a burden to be confined, but it did give me time to rest, and to rethink things over. Maybe being stuck in the hospital for 5 days has it's benefits too. :)

end of JUNE.

yes I know it's july...
and yes I know this post is SUPER LATE.
but I've been really busy... and I mean REALLY busy with work, training and all!
so please understand.

anyways...

JUNE has once again left the building... but some things are better left for us to remember them. :)

I finally got to spend time with my long time friends.. :)
and yes, it was the first time that the three of us (plus djam) went someplace else to actually spend time... cause we RARELY do that back when we were in college...

here's the link to the pictures. :)

MAXIMA && MAREX escapade (RABIES MODE)

we first went to Maxima to experience the SUPER SLIDE... it's basically a slide (duh?) that goes all the way out into the open sea.. and mind you, Maxima is located at one of the many cliffs of IGACOS (Island Garden City of Samal). It was really fun, especially when for the most part of it, we were equally scared and thrilled to try out EVERYTHING that they had there...

apart from the slide, they also have the aqua trampoline, which was nice... considering that it was located at the distal parts of the area...

still, despite all the drama (yes there were dramas) we equally had fun.

After the fun in Maxima, we went to another resort. And despite the heavy downpour of the rain, we still managed to reach our destination. (yes it was raining, cause technically summer is over) Upon reaching Marex Resort, we head out to find refuge in their cage-like cottages. LOL.

preparing our dinner wasn't easy at all.. considering our only ready-to-eat roasted chicken was taken away from it's domains, not by anybody, but by a dog... the freakin' dog. We had no choice but to share the remnants of the chicken... poor us, we might have rabies by now.. LOL.

After the beach hopping and everything, we (original cast) planned on having our pictures taken... and so we did. :)

the trio PHOTOSHOOT

all in all, June was a very exhausting, yet very fun month for me. :)